【補足】
今回の動画は、ムージがパパジに質問をしてその教えを受け取っている場面のものです。
質問は
How do I put an end to suffering once and for all?
苦悩を決定的に終わらせるにはどうしたらよいのですか?
というものでした。
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http://vaststillness.com/spiritual-lesson/ego-and-fear/surrender-to-ego-papaji/
からの文章を引用
■Papaji
Toni?
Toni used to be girl, no?
I have one Toni.
She is a girl.
Why she is also a girl.
■Toni ( mooji )
Sir.
■Papaji
Nickname?
Your nickname or name, Toni?
A nickname your parents call you or name?
■Toni ( mooji )
The name is Anthoni, but it's shortened to Toni.
■Papaji
Toni.
My spiritual awakening began 6 years ago.
After a prayer, my whole life and nature underwent a great change, inwardly and outwardly.
There wasn't any real effort for me, except my consistent trusting in that thing within which was making me feel safe.
It was then that my real faith in God began.
I found that I could talk with God freely, intimately, that I was being loved and guided from within and without, and a great love and peace, trust arose in my heart.
Since then, I have continued over the years and through much trials and tests to try and give over my will and way entirely to the divine.
I saw there was one universal spirit which was called by different names and worshipped in different ways.
I prayed I might reach a place of complete surrender and merge in the divine will or self.
In spite of the grace, many powerful experiences, and deepening relationship with God, the vain and proud ego was not fully destroyed and continued to trouble.
While in Rishikesh, I met three of your devotees who told me about their wonderful master, Papaji.
Now, by the grace of God, I am here at your feet.
I know I was led here.
I feel the presence quite strongly here flowing out from you and love of satsang family, and the flame of inner peace, joy, silence, which I felt so strongly before its ablaze again.
Though it had never really gone out, I had heard of Sri. Ramana Maharshi and noticed books about him but felt no real attraction at all towards him.
Until I met you 3 weeks ago, the path of self-inquiry was new to me as my usual way of worship was self-surrender, and that felt natural to me.
Still, it is the same one reality which led me here to you.
Now, I feel coming before you represents my death; dying to all the false ideas I have of myself and I feel a little afraid.
Also, I experience some doubts towards you, but I am fully ready to die in my yearning to fully live.
I have had enough identifying with ego, its pride, vanity.
Being here has enabled me to identify the culprit more clearly.
I see how it has robbed me of the true light of the self.
Also, I see that somehow all along, I have cooperated to some extent in the whole scheme.
At the same time, I am always aware that the self is there in the background, still unshakable, silent, reassuring, and I hold on to it.
Now, I want you to chop off my head and put it fully into my heart where it belongs.
I don't know how.
Pure, my motive is for seeking realization.
I know that I want, with all of my heart, to realize, live, and abide in the true self.
I have benefited from sitting here silently in your presence.
I feel things shifting, though this knot of fear within is still clearly felt.
Please help.